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Trish Una ([personal profile] figlia_morbida) wrote2022-08-08 05:05 pm
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dead_eyed_wolf: neutral (๐Ÿบ from underneath)

[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-02-19 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
[Ah. Finicky, as always. Mukuro won't comment; she expects this kind of thing from Trish by now, and there's a sense of it being something acceptable to complain about. Everyone goes through horrific things here, and there's serious, awful stuff to bring up instead, but - well, that's usually painful to someone, sometime. Petty small stuff like this - it's a safe topic.

So she just hums, tail swaying slowly behind her.]


I'm glad. I mean - I'm not really used to - making friends, still. I guess.

[It still feels strange to even say. She picks up a rice ball, nibbles at it as she thinks.]

Most of my other friends... they live nearby, so I can keep an eye on them. But they're also - all different monster types. We all have some stuff in common, but...

[She shrugs one shoulder, taking another bite. Chews, swallows, manages to look back towards Trish, quietly earnest and unsure.]

...You're a were, too, so - I wanted to make sure I was - helping.

[Tell someone they're your kouhai without saying they're your kouhai.]
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-02-22 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
[Mukuro can't stop a little smile, hearing that. Both because she's glad she's been so helpful already, but also... of course she'd helped without being asked. Asking for help can be humiliating or even terrifying. Asking means you might be denied, and punished for it, or told how worthless you are, or laughed at, or any number of awful things. And even if she hadn't had her prior life experience to teach her that, Mukuro lived with two people who made it a habit to never show that weakness. They never asked, because they couldn't stand finding out for sure how little they might mean to others. They never let themselves be weak, never let themselves need anyone else. Even though of course they did.

Mukuro and many, many people in their little group knew, you can't rely on anyone but yourself. But they've been unlearning that, bit by bit. And it's good to know Trish might not have ever felt like that, and that she can depend on others when she needs.]


...Good.
We have to look out for each other you know...?

[That's one truth Mukuro's kept since coming here. Even if her circle has expanded from a single person to many, they're all trusted friends and peers. If they don't protect each other, no one else will.

She finishes off a rice ball, more delicately than perhaps expected, and glances Trish's way again. What do they have in common, hm.]


Do - um. If you have questions, about - anything, I don't mind answering.
Whether it's about - me, or - this place, or advice, or. Whatever.
Edited (i'm so sorry for phone tagging) 2022-02-22 07:43 (UTC)
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-03-05 06:18 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh no, Trish is upset - Mukuro's paws come up, open and harmless, blue pads obvious against the grey.]

N-no - I mean - yes, it - it's because of that, but it's not - uhh.

[Trish!! She's sorry! They'd been soft at each other, but it wasn't that bad, right...?? It's not like the stories she'd heard of crazy, super embarrassing stuff people did when they got really drunk at parties. They're okay. They'll recover. And it's not like anyone else saw. And even if they had, who would ever dare to make fun of them for real?]

I'm - a little worried, yeah. And I just - I know it's hard to - ask. But it's not a big deal.

[The saving grace of the shy teen. Not a big deal. They don't have to make a thing of it. Mukuro's certainly not the type to run around telling everyone Trish's every move, and she's done way dumber stuff than her anyway.]

It's just - you know. I've been a werewolf for a while, and - we're friends. I want to - I want to make sure you're okay.

[Such as the above. She is painfully earnest, murmuring like that.]
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-03-07 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
That's okay.

[Softly, as she chances a look into Trish's pretty green eyes.]

You don't - need to be ashamed. And you don't have to like it.
I just think - there are parts of it you might like. And that can be enough to just - get through the rest. You know...?

[This is... hard. Mukuro's never been in the business of hope. On incremental improvements, on socializing, on interpersonal care. But she understands how to survive above all, and how to take care of her body so that she can depend on it when it counts. She can problem-solve, and she learns well. So she can apply what she does know to the people she cares about.

She's trying. As best she can. Gesturing to the curry, she continues, her voice a low murmur.]


The way we have to eat is awful for most people... so, figuring out how to make it a little more normal makes it easier.
Being a monster is scary and painful sometimes... so learning what new things you can do with it lets you find the fun parts.

[Mukuro glances up again, trying to make herself understood despite her limited vocabulary.]

You're not - wrong, to not like it. Most people hate it here. I'm - I'm the weird one, I know I am. But - it helps me see stuff people can't sometimes, that's all.
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-03-20 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
[She nods along as she listens. It doesn't feel like Trish is dismissing or belittling her, not at all. Trish is even saying she's met weirder people, which is probably true enough as far as the other girl knows. It's just that they're such different people, from such different lives. But the question at the end - that's easy, and she nods much more firmly.]

Yes.

[Of course she had. How could she not? Even though she truly appreciates what she's become... being a monster is not a completely positive experience. None of them escaped unscathed.]

When I first started changing - I was too hurt and tired to really do anything. The first night was - bloody. I almost bit my roommate; I couldn't handle the wolf instincts at first.

[A pause, as she tries to phrase it. It makes her sound crazy, she doesn't like being vulnerable, but - it's for Trish. So. She continues in a soft, hesitant murmur.]

I feel it - like it's - there. In the back of my head. Sometimes it's really hard to control.
There are things I always had trouble with that are worse now. Crowds, loud noises - fireworks are really bad.
And my emotions are - m-more. Um. I used to - before, I was good at keeping everything - locked down. Except for anger. Now, I feel more things, more strongly - and anger is still extra hard to deal with, because now it makes me want to bite, and that's - really dangerous for me to do.

[She gestures to her jaw - moreso than just the vicious teeth and brutal strength, there's an extra factor to deal with.]

...I - m-my bite is - infectious. If I'm too upset, I - uh, I drool. This awful black gunk. That's - um. That's part of why I stayed a normal wolf, when everyone else was - little kids. My Fog form used to do it all the time. I only learned to turn it off a month later.
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-03-28 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
[Mukuro can't help a little smile, at that. It's - sweet. It's really sweet, that Trish associates her most monstrous and terrifying form with cheap ramen and being cared for. She's very lucky to have met the people she's met, here.

The sad ears definitely get her to focus up again, but her expression stays just as soft as she speaks.]


No, not all. Some people never get any. Some people get them before the physical ones, or long after. And there are monster types that have mental changes even without being animal-based. It's pretty random.

[In her experience, they're common enough for her to warn people about it if they ask for her advice on changes, but there are absolutely those who managed to avoid anything like that.]

...I did say - you'd still be you. I'm still me.
But maybe you'll get really into putting honey in your tea. I don't know.

[Is that a joke? From the peninsula's least humorous werewolf? Gasp.]

You know - werebears are one of the biggest and strongest monsters, physically. Even regular bears can do stuff like tear off car doors and things.
I know you don't necessarily want to fight... but being able to do stuff like that is pretty thrilling.
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-04-06 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[The comment about Steve just gets another small pleased smile. If anyone's gonna rub off on her, Steve is the nicest and normalest, so it's fine. As for wrecking cars...]

Well... not that exactly. But I did do a lot of stuff to test out my new body.
A lot of what I do is based on muscle memory, so... I had to kind of relearn a lot of it, since my proportions are all different and I'm so much stronger. So when I realized how different it was I started pushing my limits.

[She stretches out said long limbs, paw and toebeans on full display.]

That's how I learned how high I can jump now, and how fast I can run. And - running wasn't fun before, it was just a thing I was okay at. Running as a wolf feels good.

[Nodding to the depleted picnic, she glances back up at Trish's cute bear face.]

Once we're done here we can try some stuff, if you like. It'll be interesting at least.
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-04-26 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
[Despite herself, Mukuro smiles. It's brief, hesitant and shy, but it's there all the same, a little spark of surprised pleasure before she settles back into her soft neutral look. 'If you're there.' Knowing she's important enough to matter, that she can actually help - it's nice. It's exactly what she's been trying to be, for Trish. It's good to know it's working.]

Okay.

[She pops the last rice ball into her mouth, chews and swallows as she gathers the containers and such back into her bag. She's not about to leave a mess in the woods no matter how eager she is to play with Trish. And that's what this is, really; Trish doesn't need to train like Mukuro had, hasn't asked to spar like Steve. She's trying to find the joy in this existence.

Shouldering the bag once more, Mukuro stretches to her full height, hands above her head - and then settles down to all fours as she glances Trish's way. The tip of her tail is already twitching a little, back and forth, the wolf always unwilling to hide its feelings.]


I bet you can keep up with me.

[She's going to make sure of it - it'd be really rude to leave Trish in the dust when she's inviting her on this excursion, after all. But genuinely, bears are much faster than people expect. And with that, she's off, loping through the snow.]
Edited 2022-04-26 04:01 (UTC)
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-04-26 12:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[Yeah, right now. It's been months of Trish moping and doing nothing, apparently; it's time to work on it. Mukuro keeps her pace even, moving far below her top speed - she's well aware Trish needs to ease into it, and that's made even more obvious when the bear refuses to use all four paws. Ryou had been hesitant at first, too. It's hard adjusting to a totally different body plan and gait.

Unfortunately, Trish's stubbornness catches up with her and sends her into the snow. Mukuro immediately circles back around, checking to see if she maybe caught her ankle on a root or something, but thankfully it seems like the only injury is probably to Trish's pride.

Very gently, she says:]


You get better traction and balance on four legs.
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-04-28 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
[Aw. Mukuro sinks down to her haunches beside the pouting bear, leaning to gently touch her nose to Trish's shoulder - she's trying to show support without being too cuddly. Trish's finicky, as her complaints reiterate, and Mukuro doesn't want to add even more things for her to Deal With currently.]

I have alcohol wipes in my bag. We can clean your hands when we're done.

[Problem, solution. It's said without any kind of judgement or chiding tone. It's just the reality of the situation - if you want to run fast as a were, you have to get used to it, but that doesn't mean Trish needs to put up with dirty paws afterwards either. They'll all adapt how they can.]

Come on, you can do it.
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-04-28 06:38 am (UTC)(link)
[Mukuro's comfortable with being a beast, but Trish very much is not. She isn't about to rub Trish's nose in it, so to speak, by drawing attention to the differences in their front limbs. Mukuro's distinct fingers and manual dexterity are definitely different than the bear's broad paws, and it's a privilege she's very aware of at the moment.

The question gets a firm nod. She would never promise anything she wasn't willing to back up! Especially not when she's offering herself as support - what's the good in getting Trish to lean on her only to betray her later with the horror of slushy paws?]


Mm. I don't mind using my first aid stuff.

[It's easily replaced. She can use bottled water to rinse them first if it's really bad, and she has a small towel as well as gauze and wipes. A little dirt is normal, but this is part of learning to handle things step by step, and if she has the means to alleviate some of the discomfort of course she'll offer. If helping a friend isn't worth a couple solars at the drug store it's not much of a friendship.]
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[personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf 2022-04-30 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Perhaps surprisingly, Mukuro's tail is wagging again. Seeing Trish actually agreeing to try is a big deal. Mukuro's honestly a little surprised Trish is giving it a chance at all, rather than insisting on never allowing her front paws to touch dirt. It's exciting, having this chance.]

It's not so bad, right...?
Feels sturdy.

[Mukuro stays on all fours herself, taking a few bounds through the snow to one of the brittle dead trees nearby. She sits, looking expectantly back at Trish, eyes gleaming as they reflect the ambient light - eerie, probably, except for the fact that her tail is making a little cone-shaped divot in the snow.]

Bears are a lot stronger than wolves, too.
I bet you could smash this.

[The big mitts are useful for something! Powerful slaps! This tree is doomed if Trish can tap into her monster strength - Mukuro moves slowly, demonstrating the motion necessary.]

Move with your whole body and follow through.

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